dreaming these dreams

you are the mad sea

and i am drowning in you

grant me one last breath.

matters of the heart
pulling me down with its weight
so heavy in me.

you once wished for the stars, so i wrapped you up a galaxy.

i once asked for the moon - you gave me an eclipse.

i remember those nights, those nights in november.

tossing and turning, switching the light back on. sleep was just a route to return to you. in dreams, in the reoccurring memories of my subconscious. let me escape.

heavy eyelids masking away the glimmer that you set light. just another piece to add into the gallery you’ve created upon me. like silk the rays from the moon make their way through the window, bringing light to awaken my heavy heart’s shadow. you left me with traces of melancholy in the air, where i breathe out hope and take in tears. filling my lungs with longing only to leave myself drowning with possibilities and expectations unfulfilled.

i return to the warmth of the blankets, welcoming nightmares instead. anything other than you because i remember those nights, those nights in november.

they’re just like this one. 

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And she said, “I know promises are meant to be kept, still I’ve broken every one I made. But I promise I won’t make the same mistake.”

Time is chasing me down and I am ready to be caught.

when the time comes, forget these words i let slip pass my tongue. replace them with the ones whispered at midnight. hush now, think of the decaying memories and salvage them before they too, are blown away with the other leaves of spring. like fallen leaves we became fallen in love. or did we? even the sky can’t save us now. each star grasping every wish, slowly turning into dust. take my hand, take my heart and we’ll run away. our minds aren’t clear. our thoughts? irrational. but that’s why we need to go.

it’s midnight now, so listen; i just don’t want to lose you.

and in that moment, everything was perfect. even the way our legs moved on the grass, pushing out the smell of soaked rain.

All along you were my silver lining, I just needed to get out of the clouds.